Lavender 

I used to think you lavender 

And myself a shade of blue

Because when you came round

You lit me up

And replaced my blue with you 

Lavender was all I craved 

Steadiness, warmth, and calm

When you called out to me

It was your lavender I slipped on 

You waved away my cloudy days

With just a flick of your hand

You steadied all my careless ways 

And helped me understand 

It was okay to be blue, you’d say

After your fourth or fifth beer 

Just don’t get too crazy, babe

You’d remind me with a jeer

I lay with you in your bed at night 

Knowing I wasn’t the only one

Who laid at night with lavender 

True blue, I bit my tongue. 

Days to weeks and weeks to months

And now it has been years 

I’m always blue, and only blue 

Until lavender reappears 

So many times I’ve wondered 

And then I’ve stopped myself 

Was I truly blue when you found me?

Or did you declare me blue yourself?

Was it my state of being 

Or an opening you saw – 

Was I ever something other than blue

Or were you the blue one after all?

That’s the funny thing about time 

And growing past a problem 

You start to see with clarity 

You start to learn to solve them 

If I saw you now, you’d smile that smile

That you saved just for me 

And I know I’d squint and 

For just a moment 

The predator would be me

I loved you once

And I swear some days 

I wish I could turn back time

But I stop myself, remembering

How blue you made my mind 

Because that’s the thing 

That took so long 

For me to understand – 

You were the rough and bellowing sea

And I was the safety of land. 

I thought it was in reverse 

You the savior, I the damned

But when the fog cleared

And the sky beamed down 

I saw it was all lavender in my hands 

The house to ourselves, the captain’s chair 

You called me “Pink” to all your friends

A knowing look, your strut, your sway –

Third Eye Blind’s “Dopamine” on replay

The bad was bad and the good was good

And that’s all I can let it be

In the succession of your blue girls 

I never fell in line

I protested, I fought for myself 

And now color is mine 

I found out what you never wanted me to know

The truth you kept under your thumb

The lavender was always me

It was you who was blue all along 

GOD, I HATE SHAKESPEARE. 

Mom and I had the opportunity to go see Something Rotten at the Peace Center tonight, and lemme tell ya – I loved it.  Not only was it hilarious and such a fun adventure – ADAM PASCAL (of Rent fame) is playing Shakespeare in the touring company. ROGER, MUZETTA’S WALTZ ALL OVER ME!! 

We had such a great time and I highly recommend you see this show if it comes near you! 

GETTIN’ HIGH (03/05/17)

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For Tyler’s 29th birthday, we went down to Atlanta and had ourselves a time. From staying in a swank ass room at the Hyatt and watching Star Wars movies in style to feasting at Medieval Times, it was a wonderful getaway, and hopefully a marvelous birthday! I think he really enjoyed his special day, and that’s all I could ask for!

On his actual birthday, we went to the High Museum of Art in Atlanta, which was a first for us both. UGH. HELLO, NEW FAVORITE PLACE. I was overcome!

I took a bunch of pictures of some of my favorite things that I saw at the museum – let me know what your favorite is in the comments! And sorry if I get an artist name or the title of a piece of art wrong, I’m just one gal!

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EPCOT (01/27/17)

I always have to ask myself if EPCOT or the Magic Kingdom is my favorite park, and it’s such a fine line that it really depends on the day. But dayum, do I love EPCOT.

This was a first for us – EPCOT was hosting its first International Festival of the Arts, and I absolutely had to get down there to see what they had to offer. Also, I will use anything as an excuse to get to Disney World. Enjoy some photos from around the world and of some truly beautiful art, aka my selfies. JK. Sort of.

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CUT! Costumes & the Cinema

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(dress worn by Lara Flynn Boyle in the movie Land of the Blind)

Last month, Tyler & I went for our second visit to the Columbia Museum of Art in, you guessed it, Columbia! Man oh man, what a gorgeous place with so much to offer. Seriously – you’ve absolutely got to check it out.

The first time we visited was in November of last year, and I gotta give major props to them – for a pretty quick return trip, there were already a lot of new and exciting things to see and explore that had popped up in just that short amount of time.

Most new & notable: the CUT! Costumes & the Cinema exhibit, which was expansive and luscious and overwhelming and absolutely more beautiful than you could believe. The artistry that goes into costuming for theatre and cinema has long since been an interest of mine, and to get to see these exquisite works of art virtually in my own backyard was a true gift. Fortunately they did let us take photos, so I took some to share with all of you! If I get some of the movies or actors/actresses wrong, please correct me – I am only one fool who forgot to take notes.

Read on for more pictures!

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A Public Apology

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It was brought to my attention the other day that I have been somewhat of a hypocrite, as far as relationships go.

Rewind about five months ago. A classmate (and now friend) of mine was asked if she had any plans to start looking for an apprentice funeral director/embalmer position, and she answered no. She was going to finish school and then see what her boyfriend wanted to do, as far as his career and his location plans were. She looked right at me.

“Don’t judge me.” She said.

I scoffed.

“Too late,” I replied back.

Fast forward. With the same classmate/friend in tow at the Midwinter convention that we attended as a class last week, I found myself saying shades of the same. “I don’t have any plans to look for an apprenticeship right now. I want to really focus on school and then see where my boyfriend is at at that point, because one of us may move if a job opportunity comes up.”

Erika called me right out, and rightfully so.

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IF YOU AIN’T FIRST, YOU’RE LAST!

So, I went on a road trip last week to see Melanie Martinez in Memphis, and that was really exciting and wonderful and I love her dear little Cry Baby heart infinitely – but there is something else a liiiiittle more important to do in Memphis that I’ve been wanting to do since I was a zygote.

Like, DUH! You go to see the King! People – after years and years and years of begging for what seemed like a trillion times to a trillion people, the stars aligned and I finally got to go walking in Memphis and see G-R-A-C-E-L-A-N-D! BUT! More on all that later.

Now that I have gotten better about flying, I was totally willing to fly in and out of Memphis so that we would have a little bit more time to vacation. There was one small fly in the ointment of my travels, however – if I drove, I would get to go to Mississippi and Arkansas. Two previously unchartered terrains on my growing list of states that I’ve visited.

So drive we did.

Ugh.

Driving.

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(This is me doing really well at being in the car for what turned out to be a nearly 12 hour stretch)

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